The issue I have been unconsciously ignoring is the fact that I miss my ex. I miss the person she was perceived to be. I miss her being there for me, coming to get me from places, caring if I sleep in the bed with her so much, telling me how much she misses/loves me, and most of all sleeping together at night.
I miss all of those things so much. Now is it with her or just the companionship. That I do not know. I am dating a girl and I feel like she is the same type of person. So we go back to the law of attraction and why in the hell am I attracting these people! I need to look within and find these answers.
I do not wish to speak to her as I know things have changed.
I need to learn to forgive, learn from this, and be honest. It's ok to miss her! It's ok to still love hr. It bothers me to know that she put on an act in the end. She had a separate life and here I was just being a dumbass and letting it happen. I just cant believe I let this happen.....what the hell.
Just live the best life you can. Some people are really messed up and rather it's because they have mental illness or rather it's because they lack a conscious soul. You can't control or change them. We want to help in the beginning. Because they fool us with their stories of how they have been the victim of everyone else. You will soon find - they were never the victim. They were the victimizer
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