The issue I have been unconsciously ignoring is the fact that I miss my ex. I miss the person she was perceived to be. I miss her being there for me, coming to get me from places, caring if I sleep in the bed with her so much, telling me how much she misses/loves me, and most of all sleeping together at night.
I miss all of those things so much. Now is it with her or just the companionship. That I do not know. I am dating a girl and I feel like she is the same type of person. So we go back to the law of attraction and why in the hell am I attracting these people! I need to look within and find these answers.
I do not wish to speak to her as I know things have changed.
I need to learn to forgive, learn from this, and be honest. It's ok to miss her! It's ok to still love hr. It bothers me to know that she put on an act in the end. She had a separate life and here I was just being a dumbass and letting it happen. I just cant believe I let this happen.....what the hell.
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
Sunday, June 1, 2014
Date Night-I guess I can be vindictive..
I remember a hilarious story. When I was 15 I was dating a girl. Well I found she had been talking to this guy. It was an ex boyfriend of hers. I told her I did not like it and she wouldn't listen so I decided to teach her a lesson.
I somehow ended up calling him and acting like a person I was not. I ended up getting him to go on a date with Kelsey (myself). So I really didn't want to do this so I asked my gay best friend to go with me.
He says, How can I do that? I said well you can ride in my trunk? He was such a good friend he agreed!
He rode with me to pick up Travis and before I got to his house we pulled over. He jumped in the trunk and gave me two rules.
1.) Don't go fast over railroad tracks
2.) Don't turn the music up too loud.
I picked Travis up and immediately he took control of the radio turning he volume up very loud. There goes rule 1.
2...I forgot about Rule 2. We ended up just cruising and talking for a few hours.
After I dropped him off I popped the trunk and pulled over....to find my friend stuck in the fetal position.
I ended up getting him out and he wasn't happy about the broken rules. I love him for it though. I never told my girlfriend at the time and we kept it between us. I don't know how that made me feel better but I found out that she was only talking to him as friends....how DUMB did I feel?!
I somehow ended up calling him and acting like a person I was not. I ended up getting him to go on a date with Kelsey (myself). So I really didn't want to do this so I asked my gay best friend to go with me.
He says, How can I do that? I said well you can ride in my trunk? He was such a good friend he agreed!
He rode with me to pick up Travis and before I got to his house we pulled over. He jumped in the trunk and gave me two rules.
1.) Don't go fast over railroad tracks
2.) Don't turn the music up too loud.
I picked Travis up and immediately he took control of the radio turning he volume up very loud. There goes rule 1.
2...I forgot about Rule 2. We ended up just cruising and talking for a few hours.
After I dropped him off I popped the trunk and pulled over....to find my friend stuck in the fetal position.
I ended up getting him out and he wasn't happy about the broken rules. I love him for it though. I never told my girlfriend at the time and we kept it between us. I don't know how that made me feel better but I found out that she was only talking to him as friends....how DUMB did I feel?!
U-Hauls
I have noticed with lesbians...most of the sayings are true.
We all know joke...What's Lesbians second day? A U-Haul...bum bum ching!
Very true. But why is this?
I think that if you look at statistics that 1 out of every 10 people are gay so that leaves 1/10th of that population to comingle with. Within that 10 percent only 1 or 2 percent may be the type that you are attracted to. My point is...it's hard to find someone that is gay first of all...second of all someone that you are attracted to...and third of all and most importantly someone that you connect with. Hence when you find someone you are quick to move and maybe even move in!
My next favorite question is how do two girls umm do it?
My answer: Use your imagination because we do. Creativity is key!
What is it with the cheating though? Yes we are two women but can we be faithful please?
Sexually the lesbian death bed does happen quite often. Its the good old routine I guess and once you know what to do you just do it and done.
We all know joke...What's Lesbians second day? A U-Haul...bum bum ching!
Very true. But why is this?
I think that if you look at statistics that 1 out of every 10 people are gay so that leaves 1/10th of that population to comingle with. Within that 10 percent only 1 or 2 percent may be the type that you are attracted to. My point is...it's hard to find someone that is gay first of all...second of all someone that you are attracted to...and third of all and most importantly someone that you connect with. Hence when you find someone you are quick to move and maybe even move in!
My next favorite question is how do two girls umm do it?
My answer: Use your imagination because we do. Creativity is key!
What is it with the cheating though? Yes we are two women but can we be faithful please?
Sexually the lesbian death bed does happen quite often. Its the good old routine I guess and once you know what to do you just do it and done.
Thursday, May 29, 2014
Choices....
I am going to get up on a soap box for one second and then I will step right back down or perhaps have it kicked from underneath me.
Heterosexuals do not realize how lucky they are. The fact that they get to create a baby with someone that they love that is a mix of both of them. "Oh, he has your eyes and my smile!" Sometimes you love someone so much that you want that extension of them and you. So if you are a heterosexual don't forget or take for granted that (most of you minus any issues) you can make love to someone you love and create life that is a little bit of both of you.
If I had a choice, why would I choose a harder life. Now don't get me wrong, I LOVE women and wouldn't change a thing but this is not something that one day I woke up and said I think I'm going to choose to be gay.
I want to ask someone...So when did you know you were...you know...straight? Or what about so how long have you been straight? My favorite is so...how do you do it? Oh and let us not forget.............I've never known anyone that was straight before but your pretty cool.
I hope one day that we can both realize that love is an amazing thing. It is the BEST thing that we cannot see, touch, smell, but we can feel it. It is what makes the world go around. Love is love......equality is love.....no matter what the race. We are all beautiful and once we can all accept that the world will be a much better place.
Heterosexuals do not realize how lucky they are. The fact that they get to create a baby with someone that they love that is a mix of both of them. "Oh, he has your eyes and my smile!" Sometimes you love someone so much that you want that extension of them and you. So if you are a heterosexual don't forget or take for granted that (most of you minus any issues) you can make love to someone you love and create life that is a little bit of both of you.
If I had a choice, why would I choose a harder life. Now don't get me wrong, I LOVE women and wouldn't change a thing but this is not something that one day I woke up and said I think I'm going to choose to be gay.
I want to ask someone...So when did you know you were...you know...straight? Or what about so how long have you been straight? My favorite is so...how do you do it? Oh and let us not forget.............I've never known anyone that was straight before but your pretty cool.
I hope one day that we can both realize that love is an amazing thing. It is the BEST thing that we cannot see, touch, smell, but we can feel it. It is what makes the world go around. Love is love......equality is love.....no matter what the race. We are all beautiful and once we can all accept that the world will be a much better place.
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